We've hit a wall and for the first time we completely disagree on the subject. My husband recently approached me about going back to work and I kind of blew him off thinking, "He can't be serious." Well, he was. I thought that if I gave him the numbers and showed him that all I would be bringing to bottom line was pennies, he'd finally see that me going to work right now wouldn't be worth it. I thought wrong.
His point of view:
If we wanna buy this house we are living in then we need to make more money on paper.
Any extra income helps our current situation.
My point of view:
Cost of daycare against amount of money I will be making
Finding a job that allows me weekends off and preferably off by 2 so I don't have to pay for after school care for Madelynn too.
Having to let go of all my activities, getting Maddy to dance, Wednesday mornings at church, Friday mornings volunteering at Maddy's school.
My heart is breaking because I know its killing my husband to even have to ask me to go back to work in the first place. A man measures his worth in his ability to provide and I know he feels like he's been lacking. I appreciate everything he does and I try to make the situation as easy for him as possible. I'm very frugal with the money and I try to stretch the dollar as fas as it will go. I literally am brought to tears just thinking about having to go back to work and leave my girl in daycare. I wanna do what's best for our family, but I truly believe me working is not the answer.
I've been taught that in these situations to pray to God for the answers. I pray, but I never know what His answer is for me. Maybe I'm not good at recognizing the signs. I'm torn and all I want is to do the right thing. I wanna relieve the stress from my husband and I would like to live without the constant stress that lack of money brings. Maybe I'm dreaming.
